We need God to break our hearts
Our band had just played a show in one of the most notorious male strip clubs in São Paulo, Brazil. There was hardcore pornography stored in the basement to be distributed to pornographic bookstores. To make room for the audience to watch our show, they had to remove a runway that ran through the center of the theater, which allowed the audience to get closer to the strippers.
The guy who organized our concert called himself “Boy.” He was about 45 years old, dressed in army fatigues, and was a pretty scary individual. He was constantly trying to corner me before the concert so that he could make crude sexual remarks.
After the concert, I couldn’t wait to get out of this place. I had no intention of talking to Boy. I found him revolting and just wanted to get as far away from him as possible. But then I thought, ‘Okay, I’d better say something to be nice.’ So I walked over toward him, planning on saying a quick “thank you” just to be polite so I could leave.
But as I approached him I could feel God's incredible love for him. Instead of a quick goodbye, I passionately shared that Jesus had died for him! As I was saying this, the Holy Spirit fell on both of us like a warm blanket, and Boy started to weep. He showed me matching scars on his stomach and back, where someone had shot him on the street. He said that he had always wondered why he had not died, but that now he understood. And while he said that, I, too, understood something—Boy was someone God loved, no matter how unlovable he seemed to me. Boy was somebody that Jesus died for.
Reaching the secular world for Jesus always begins with a broken heart.
If our hearts are not broken, our attempts to reach the secular world around us will have no impact. The paradox is that we cannot make ourselves have his heart. It is not something we can manufacture; it’s a gift that God gives freely to those who humbly surrender to Him and just ask.
I have no doubt that God wants to use your life to reach the secular world for Him. But if your efforts are not fueled by His power, and motivated by His love, it will produce no fruit.