If God Takes His Hand Off Of Me, I'm Dead
I was about to speak in a high school in Sydney Australia after a local band called “Furthermore’ played.” The principal told me that these students were very cynical, so don’t feel bad if they just ignore you and mock you.
So with these encouraging words I jumped on the stage in the auditorium after the band finished their last song and gave a strong and clear message about the Cross and why Jesus had to come to the earth and die. God moved powerfully, and nobody mocked or laughed. You could hear a pin drop it was so quiet. About half of the students stood in the auditorium and prayed out loud to receive Jesus, including some teachers.
Afterward, I was having lunch with the principal of the school, and he was kind of in shock because he said he had never seen anything like that before. I was feeling pretty excited about God (and myself), and I told about how in Ephesians 1:18 it says that the same power that raised Jesus from the dead is available to everyone who believes.
Immediately after I said that I was hit with one of the worst bouts of flu in my life, and I had to leave the restaurant to go back to where I was staying - where I collapsed in bed.
The next day I was still so out of it that I literally couldn’t move. I was scheduled to do a workshop that day and the guy who had organized it more than six months earlier came into my room and shouted at me that I couldn’t let him down and that I had to speak while I laid there lamely moaning. So I tried hard to get up, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t get off my bed.
As I laid there, I thought, “how is it possible that the same power that raised Jesus from the dead is available to me, and at the same time I’m laying in this guy’s bed who is shouting at me, unable to move because of this flu?”
"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us." - 2 Corinthians 4:7
God wanted to remind me where the power comes from. I think that’s why he allowed me to catch this flu. Yes, God puts this resurrection power in us, but he intentionally puts this power in weak people.
Why? To keep me from pride and motivate me to keep daily contact with Jesus.
In Ephesians 2:10 it says that God created me from good works in advance. So if I am an authentic follower of Jesus I am created to do things that are significant and important. Good works in the Bible are by definition things that have eternal value.
What will stop me from experiencing those good works is if I look to my own strength and wisdom and try to live by my own efforts and power.
God wanted to remind me that I am weak. That if he takes his hand off me for a second, I am dead.
I have been walking with Jesus for more than 30 years, and I have seen him move in extraordinary ways all over the world, but I am aware more than ever of the fact that I am weak.
I am dependent on God for everything. I can’t take credit for anything. The ability to tour and perform on stage is a gift from God. The strength to write this blog comes from God. Without Jesus, I can do nothing!
But even though I am aware of my weakness I STILL pray impossible prayers. My faith is STRONGER than ever. My expectations about what God can do in my life are bigger than they have ever been.
No, I am not deluded about who I am. I know I’m not so impressive, but this doesn’t make my faith small. Because I know that God uses weak people like me to change the world.